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[Jun. 15th, 2004|11:20 am] |
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i'm scared
everything is changing
meeting new people is fun but leaving behind old friends isn't
i don't want to be taken away from my comfort zone but at the same time i need to get away
i'm scared to grow up. i'm scared to get older.
i've been thinking too much the past couple days
i have no one to speak it to... and this journal thing is lame.
ive never been more scared in my life. im terrified of the future
time is going by so fast.
when i want it to slow down it speeds up
when i want it to go by fast it slows to a snails pace. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 14th, 2004|01:45 pm] |
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| |  silly | ] |
hmmm i dont recall the last time i wrote in here
anywho so much has happened
beach was fun
fob show was the ultimate ever... met some cool livejournal people... cupcake makers!! they are so awesome. a lot of times at shows people are rude and blah... they were super nice and i think i have some pictures of them on my camera... and the gum tree haha
im still feeling the after effects of the show... my left ear is still numb and the show was on friday... hahaa awesome huh?
lancaster is gonna rock... i can not wait to go
this past show was awesome tho... its is a close tie to december 26ths show... where everything was unfolded... this set was awesome. they played 2 new songs... amazing... i touched pete's leg and arm and hand after he jumped off the speaker into the crowd... and they know us. we are the regulars. haha
we are such dorks
and im in love with it. <3 |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 28th, 2004|10:29 am] |
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| |  nerdy | ] |
highschool is over
and i couldnt be more excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am kinda scared for my workload next year
i was talking to jp last night... he was telling me at his orientation they told him to look around because he probably wasnt going to see a lot of these people after a few months... due to them dropping out
he went to a two year school
this is a four year art college
ahhh!!
mrs thompson said some nice stuff to me today
im going shopping today with heather!!! yaaaaay
ok this is lame
bye |
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| "It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine. I Am Thinking It Must Be Love" |
[May. 21st, 2004|10:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | in love | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i wish i was in my car listening to the ep | ] |
why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous
always you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words
and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out
i'm in love with that song. its the soundtrack of my life... haha ok well i couldnt resist any longer i went out and bought the dvd and ep. you knew i would. i smell like sharpie and im hungry
i miss you
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| street urchin |
[May. 19th, 2004|10:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
yesterday was oodles of fun
went to ang's and finially watched the fob dvd... it was sooooooo amazing....X one million... parts of our show were on it... but the crowd shots are so quick its hard to see some of the people... but i know we are on it...
at one point it looks like pete is wearing a scarf that looks similar to mine.... but sadly its not... too much fringe.
it was awesome... the dvd is so funny... we went to michaeles to get some letters and shirts so we could make some homemade fob awesomeness shirts... but the letters are lame and there are only 3 "o's"... gah
its ok though... im excited for the shows even more now... its total hot sex
anywhooooo.....
"im not doing the chart" jen sings
tonight is the fine arts banquet and i dont feel like going... i need something nice to wear so i must raid my room for like a nice skirt or slacks
haha who says slacks?
hmm i wish it was the weekend... im off all day saturday so i need to find something to do with myself
mmmmmm sleep |
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| lame-o |
[May. 18th, 2004|10:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
blah i'm in animation class... super boring. super de duper boring
im hungry and i already ate my food. jen is looking at me and i tpyed this looking ay her.... noticethe spelling mistakes
haha
soo yeah only 4 days of highschool before finals. how insane is that?
it feels like yesterday we were just beginning and i didn't know any of you.
...people are lame
... but anyways i'm glad you (all)are in my life now (ok i mean only jen because she is whining)
hahah ok this is lame too.
and so is this school. who would ever want to stay in this school? i like my friends and thats about it... thats all this school has ever given me
why has the world gone mad??
nothing makes sense. im so confused
but jen sure does make me laugh
i am jen's hobby (that kind of freaks me out)
ok i havent written in a while and this makes no sense
just discard everything you have read above
i wanna watch the fob dvd right now
i need to see it
i need it to be summer
i need jen to stop making sexual comments with me involved
i need it to be june 11 and june 17
i need it to be july 6
i need school to start next year
i need too much
ps i like my new icon its snazzy |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 12th, 2004|09:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indifferent | ] |
went to the art exhibit from this past weekend today in westchester... (god i hate west chester drivers.. they are insane... damn one ways streets....)anywho... all of the work there was amazing
although it is inspiring to me and i get so many new ideas for pieces i could do... its depressing because my work could never turn out like that or be half as good.
i constantly wonder why i plan to persue art...
some of these poeple who are ultra super amazing at creating a piece of work... aren't going into art. its just a side hobby that they are god at.
and it hink to myself i want to persue art and i cant even do a halfass job compared to them. im going to fail at this thing called life.
gah i guess i could use the inspiration they have created for me |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 7th, 2004|11:28 am] |
11 days left
i think 19 days we have to wake up altogether including like up til graduation
i havent written in here in ages
i dont know...
i wish it was summer |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 20th, 2004|10:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
school is so pointless
it wastes my time
i could do so much more with my time at home
jen is creeping me out
but anywho...
punchline show tomorrow... holler hahaha yeah its gonna rock even more because we have a half day of school....... mmmm lancaster show
ooh in art last period i started my painting of the sunset and plam trees and such. i hope it turns out. it probably won't because i suck at life and art.
its all good
i dunno im rambling and i have nothing to talk about
28 days until the fob dvd comes out and ang and i are on it. oh yeaaaah.
ok my foot is falling asleep and im sweating to death in this school.
i love you |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|10:24 am] |
| [ | music |
| | i wish i was listening to nobody puts baby in the corner | ] |
jen sucks because we were going to do one of our good ol crazy entries but shes not doing one because she sucks hardcore
now shes glaring at me
what a loser
life is good.. the wolrd makes sense
fall out boy is having a summer tour
a countdown is in order
yesterday felt like friday and it felt like summer
i want summer to come
i want to see fob again
haha ang and i were blasting/singing to the yesterday
it was so much fun.... it wasn't FAKE FUN haha
i got some hot prom shoes.. and some black nailpolish to match and some gum
yummy
jen burped
woo?
who does that
life is good and i cant wait to go into lancaster hopefully on sunday.. i'm so happy :-)
nothing can bring me down
(even jens horrible entry about me) |
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| time in a picture |
[Mar. 28th, 2004|09:26 pm] |
*right now's the time to drive a million miles away, but i'll be here in pictures. right now's the time to drive a million miles away, i'll make it in my head*
punchline puts it so perfectly. i can't stop listening to them
i want to drive and just get away.. just keep going...
prom? i dont know what the fuck im going to do. its all everyone whos anyone talks about.
i have no date and theres no sign of one coming in sight
i'm gonna end up not going... and i'm going to pay my parents back for my nonretunrable dress because i feel bad
when i dont go i think i'll just drive somewhere..to the beach. to lancaster to timbucktoo.. |
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| tastybee productions |
[Mar. 27th, 2004|08:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | punchline dvd holler | ] |
howdy. I'm at my brothers house near maryland!!!
today i woke up all early.... 9:30!! OH GOD (angela said that) angela came over at 10:14 one whole minute early. she claims 10:12 but ya know whatever... hahaha she was trying to park...
we left to amishland saw a party of amish people!!!!! oh man it was a huge gathering!!!!
haha looked at some crummy houses... ones with 7 bedrooms and 5 full baths... a pew.. and organ and a ramp!!! imagine how many studios i would have...
hehe
saw a horse and buggy on the road... i had ang take a picture of it with my black and white film.. lol
we saw more of them working in the field... digging dirt
got to jps house.... watched some cool dvds.. aka PUNCHLINE and some incubus and eventually paul mcartney... we've watched the punchline one 3 times and we are on our fourth time now.. we've memorized it
when falloutboy's dvd comes out... watch out!! we are going to be on it!! and we are gonna watch it nonstop it will be on rotation on the dvd player... nonstop i say
we've memorized the dance moves!!!!!!!
i need a video camera
woooooo
oh!! there amish people right behind my brothers house!!
haha we heard the clopping of the hooves from the horses
we saw one.. and we tried to chase them.. but they were too far up the hill
mm punchline ROCKS... and i need to see them when they go to lancaster or philly
they are such awesome guys... really hot too not to mention :-D
angela sings"we can dance like punchline!!!!!?!"
i'm in love with them
(mm paul straightening his hair) |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 26th, 2004|10:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
my ralph picture is the coolest.. dont you agree??
i love him so much he is as cool as me
talking in rhyme is such great fun
almost as fun as lying in the yellow sun
jen is a hen she lives in a pen
within this pen she lays eggs all day
yes eggs laid in the hay
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 25th, 2004|10:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | jubilant | ] |
todays events in animation class
(jen and i typing to each other in microsoft word)
me: u smell
jen: i know
me: go take a shower
jen: showers are not fun unless they are with you *wink wink*
thats basically what was said.. i bursted into mad laughter and then i was a bit freaked out... it was most amusing though
school will be the death of me
we have exams tomorrow and i dont even know whats on math. don't even know..... that class is so annoying. stupid people.
hmm random note i have some black and white film...... so be prepared (or not) for me taking your pictures at random times. hopefully they will come out awesome..
i wish i had my manual camera so i could learn to develop my own film. that would be awesome...
i need to purchase my cameras for next year. i cant wait to start college |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 21st, 2004|03:05 pm] |
hello, and how are you?
i'm doing well but i'm freezing cold
my name is on the roomate list for lancaster :)
someone emailed me the other day
today we went out to lancaster to check out the apartments, i'm super excited
sammy got accepted :-D
ahhh the apartments are so cool
i saw a bed set i want.. its awesome... black and white with flowers
i cant wait to move
the one place we got to actually see inside today... its awesome... if i lease that one i can move in first day of july
its glorious haha
lancaster here i come
love always, me
ps happy belated bday kel |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 18th, 2004|08:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
have you ever thought about a person and wondered if they think about you in the course of their day?
have you ever wondered if they think about you half as much as you think about them?
does a day go by without that person crossing your mind?
i wonder if that person even remembers who i am.
i wonder if that person remembers my name.
i wonder if that person remembers everything (or anything) i think about.
i wonder if that person is thinking about me right now.
i wonder why i am so crazy.
am i alone? |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 18th, 2004|10:13 am] |
its suppose to snow crazy amounts tonight. wahooo
if its gonna snow i want a fricken day off
:)
but i have to work tomorrow night and saturday night, which kinda stinks.... oh well
i need to get my enviro done too
im screwed for that, so i'm going to go work on it
I hate to love to love to hate you |
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| i need |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|08:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
I can not wait to leave here
I’ve been emailing a potential roommate and I talked to her online today…
She is very nice :) (and we seem to have things in common)… even if we don’t end up rooming together I’ll have a new friend
Although I am nervous for next year I’m excited too
I get to meet a whole slew of new people… yes slew
And they are all interested in art and pursuing it…it will seem like I can finally be able to relate to someone in that sense
I hate it here.
I want summer to come
I want summer to end
I want to move
I want to start college
I want someone to understand me
I want someone to care
I feel greedy… replace ‘want’ with ‘need’
I don’t like you.
'think for yourself'
Your foundation is canyoning
Fault lines should be worn with pride
I hate to say it but you’re so much more
You’re so much more endearing with the sound turned off |
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